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Nikki Buchicchio
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| Thanksgiving was pretty good. Got into that delicious food coma. :D I ended up waking up at 11:30 a.m.. due to be only getting 4 hours of sleep the night before. Kinda sucked -- as I HATE waiting up late. We went to his dad's and even brought Shadow and Buddy! It was pretty nice. I took a small nap, and then went to my dad's house for the second dinner. Although, this was the first Thanksgiving without my mom. =\ ..
My left shoulder/neck has been hurting sooo bad. X_x We need to get a new mattress SO BAD, hahaa. We've been sleeping on a $12 air mattress for about a month. I think because I can't sleep on my right arm due to my wrist, so I always have to sleep on my other side. Owww. X_X
Twice this past week in the middle of the night... right before I go to sleep. I've had these horrible crying-myself-to-sleep fits about this year. My mom, mainly. I suppose me trying to avoid how angry I am at her, and how fast things have changed -- I don't know. It seems I haven't adapted to them like some people say I should've. It's quite aggravating, actually. :/ Jordan is my rock, he's my everything. He makes me feel okay -- like the way I feel is okay. That I'm not being a big baby and dramatic and that I shouldn't just "get over it". Yeah, I'm extremely angry at the fact my mom acts like nothing ever happened after her leaving me an angry facebook message a few months ago saying I'M the one with the problem -- not her.
If there's anything I REFUSE to do, is put on a plastic smile for her. I'm not doing it. I've done it my whole life to please OTHER fucking people. She hurt me. A lot. And not just that, but the fact she has never apologized for hurting her children. For abandoning us. And whenever I questioned her, she gave me the "how dare you ask me a question" tone. So, anything I say or do is always... always... ALWAYS wrong. Maybe that's where I get my fear + panic of making mistakes. Do I want to hold a grudge? No. This fucking sucks. :/ But, if there's anything I meant in my letter was this -- "if you continue to drink, you won't be seeing me." And I meant it. I don't care if you've had two drinks, one drink or a fucking sip.
You. Haven't. Learned. Anything.
Therefore -- you did this to yourself.
Besides all the junk in my head. xD ..
Random things to list:
There is FREE shipping in my etsy shop for ONE WEEK on Non-sale items! :D
I absolutely LOVE Farmville on Facebook. I'm so addicted. Jesus. FRIEND ME!! :B
I'm making peanut butter/jelly best friend necklace jewelry.
I have THREE, count 'em.. THREE craft shows to do in December.
I love Kenny VS Spenny.
The tattoo I had Jessica design for me I must achieve by next month. I WANNIT NOWWW.
I love Jordan Harris so, so, much. <3
It's sooo cold out! I love it. ^___^
I love fountain coke. My diet has consisted of french fries and root beer floats for the past 2 weeks. I blame Jacob. xD | Give hugs?   |
| seanluvskatamari (8:13:03 PM): NIKKI!
Natashu Chan (8:13:26 PM): :O:O:O
seanluvskatamari (8:13:33 PM): GUESS WHAT!
Natashu Chan (8:13:36 PM): o____o
seanluvskatamari (8:14:09 PM): I get to go to the SEGA HQ in San Francisco this Wednesday to play Phantasy Star Zero on the DS for 3 hours so I can preview it for the website I write for.
seanluvskatamari (8:14:16 PM): And I get free food and swag.
Natashu Chan (8:14:19 PM): fuck you. o.o
seanluvskatamari (8:14:21 PM): 'Cause I'm a pimp.
seanluvskatamari (8:14:37 PM): BE HAPPY FOR ME, WOMAN! ;_;
Natashu Chan (8:15:07 PM): fine.
Natashu Chan (8:15:09 PM): ::smile::
seanluvskatamari (8:15:19 PM): xD Fuck you. | | 1 hug / Give hugs? |
| Whew, what a buuuuuusy sugary filled day! I'm so tired. *crashes*
Pics laterz. :B | | Give hugs? |
| I lost an interest in books after I was done homeschooling 4 years ago, I don't know why.. maybe because I got SO burnt out on constantly reading.
I do miss books, and being in school when our teachers would let us check out 1-3 books at a time. I barely can remember what I would read, but I remember it was a LOT. My mom used to read to me -- and I picked up that love for books from her. I would read all the time. I remember being in 9th grade Reading class and you know when the teacher reads out loud or has a student do it and you follow along? No. I couldn't do that. I would keep my finger on the page THEY were on and I was many chapters ahead. Partly because, I read quick + I'm impatient and got annoyed when people read sloooow. xD;; I usually lose my train focus when it comes to things like that.
I remember a few getting a little irritated with me, but then some really were impressed by it over time. *shrug* =3
A friend/co-worker had this book Save Me From Myself and brought it to work. He let me take a look at the cover, read the back, I flipped through some pages to skim a few lines. Usually that's my routine with a book -- it can take me under a minute to figure out if I'm going to like a book or not. XD Weird, probably.
But, either way I felt that NEED to read that book. So, I asked to borrow it and I read about 100 pages in a couple hours the other night. I read for another 2 hours tonight and I'm near a few chapters from the end. I'll save 'em for later. :B It's been 4 YEARS since I picked a book up! Quite strange. And I didn't grab the book BECAUSE it's Brian "Head" from Korn. I didn't even recognize it was him -- plus I wasn't a big Korn fan before or now. I like their old music, but I wasn't an indepth knowing every band member/album/song fan.
I really recommend this book -- believer or not. It's very, very inspirational and gives you hope. Maybe it intrigued me, because I'm struggling viciously on my own and needed something to guide me.
When you feel like you're in Hell -- Keep going.
<3 | | Give hugs? |
| It was craaaaazy. I didn't sell as much as I had hoped. X_X It was beyond busy, and I think that was the reason... no one had time to shop. But, I think I broke even and the point of it was to get my name out there!
Everyone was so nice, a few things had happened which really really bothered me. Jordan helped more than anything, and he really took the stress off. ^_^ I love him soooo much. <333
But, I have a TONTONTON of stuff left over. So, here I come back to my etsy! I posted a new things and put a bunch of sale.
I'm only taking custom orders, and finishing up one that I owe to the pink lady. :D
So yessss, I'm super tired and going to post a couple more things up. Yaaay. | | 4 hugs / Give hugs? |
| Subject: | well now. | | Time: | 10:38 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/cranky.gif) cranky |
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| I found out at work that my brother went to the hospital a few days ago. Doctor said he was close to having a kidney stone or something. o__o
And my dad has to ask 400 questions when my brother comes back from seeing my mom. Not. Fucking. Cool. E_E
Still kinda pissed about the first issue.
Am I like... that nonexistent to my family? | | 1 hug / Give hugs? |
| Subject: | Haha. | | Time: | 11:36 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/cold.gif) cold |
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Video I took a couple nights ago of our (Jordan's actually) 16 year old cat, Kramer trying to take my food.
I redid my whole head last night, and it looks CRAZZZZZY. T_T I get a little weirded out in the mirror when I see a bazillion different purples, pinks and blues. The blue came out greener than I hoped so I might end up slapping more blue on it again to see what happens.
Since last night my stomach has been sooooo upset! It felt all acidic like, and I didn't eat anything that could cause it, I even eat some bread to tame it. Argh. :/
Stitch Rock is in ONE WEEK!!!! | | 2 hugs / Give hugs? |
| seanluvskatamari (10:34:35 PM): Wow, when I get a girlfriend I'm gonna have to change a lot of contact names in my phone... xD
seanluvskatamari (10:35:13 PM): I have all my friends in as nicknames.
seanluvskatamari (10:36:01 PM): "Jamberger" "Blue" "Missy" "Cupcake" Nikkita Banana" "The Laurinator" "Assy"
seanluvskatamari (10:36:02 PM): xD
Natashu Chan (10:36:10 PM): hahaha
Natashu Chan (10:36:23 PM): I demand no babies. o.o
Natashu Chan (10:36:33 PM): if you get preganant I will abort it for you
Natashu Chan (10:36:38 PM): same goes for your wife
seanluvskatamari (10:36:49 PM): Why the hell not? xD
Natashu Chan (10:36:54 PM): BECAUSE
Natashu Chan (10:36:57 PM): demons.
seanluvskatamari (10:36:59 PM): I wouldn't name them LIKE THAT!
Natashu Chan (10:37:06 PM): SIN!!!!!
seanluvskatamari (10:37:07 PM): And c'mon.
seanluvskatamari (10:37:11 PM): The world needs demons.
seanluvskatamari (10:37:20 PM): And I live in the state of sin!
seanluvskatamari (10:37:29 PM): NEVADA: SLUTS, SLOTS, AND SLOPES
Natashu Chan (10:37:30 PM): ok well. you'd better wait a valuable time
Natashu Chan (10:37:40 PM): if you don't come here bc of a baby
Natashu Chan (10:37:41 PM): you die.
Natashu Chan (10:37:47 PM): I've waited 10 YEARS
seanluvskatamari (10:37:55 PM): Dude, I won't be having a kid until I'm like... 30.
Natashu Chan (10:38:00 PM): ok. =D
Natashu Chan (10:38:19 PM): I approve.
seanluvskatamari (10:38:27 PM): Thank you, ma'am. o.o
seanluvskatamari (10:38:30 PM): For your approval.
Natashu Chan (10:38:35 PM): welcome. =DDDD
seanluvskatamari (10:38:39 PM): Besides.
seanluvskatamari (10:38:45 PM): I wanna go to Dunkin Donuts.
seanluvskatamari (10:38:47 PM): And I can't do that here.
seanluvskatamari (10:38:51 PM): Fuck kids.
seanluvskatamari (10:38:54 PM): Donuts come first.
Natashu Chan (10:38:58 PM): YES. <3
Natashu Chan (10:39:07 PM): We be goin' to dunkin. | | 2 hugs / Give hugs? |
| It seems nearly 80% of me trying to get a full 8/hr sleep ... doesn't work. I wake up 2-3 times a night from Jordan's mom getting up, walking around, to the dogs running around and/or barking, just something.
Or, my body wakes up when I lay on my bad right arm and I get than pins and needles feeling. T_T It's reaaaaally getting on my nerves. Then, again Jordan and I sleep on a freakin' twin bed and I end up not moving, and I wake up SO STIFF and having to crack every bone in my body to feel better.
Maybe if I make enough money at Stitch Rock I'll buy a damn queen sized bed. I'm really tired of taking naps during the day, or taking a sleeping pill just so I'm so knocked out nothing will bother me. XD
I dunno, it's making me a big grouch and I can't focus correctly at work.
Work time. x_- | | Give hugs? |
| I'm so proud of myself, haha. As I stand at work with such boredom. XD I thought about making a mini 5 x 7" portfolio of the jewelry I've made in the past! SO. Right when I got home, I got to work. And I must say it's coming out nicely. About half way filled and with a cute little title thingy on the front. :D I'm so happy I didn't get frustrated and give up, I almost did though! I really, really HATE printers. X_X
Sheesh... only TWO weeks, I have 294 items finished. Jordan is my Stitch Rock hero, because he's been helping me so much on organizing, figuring things out when I get stressed, etc. He helped me make an inventory spreadsheet too! I love him. n___n <3 I can't believe we've been together over 3 years, wow.
I still have SOOOO much to do! omg! Will it EVER end?!
- Bleach/dye hair this weekend
- Get change/floater money
- More shopping bags for customers
- Do more dry runs of setting up the table
- Organize the backstock of my jewelry
Things to GET!
Clipboard, calculators, mirror, snacks/drinks, velcro...
*rolls around* Aaaaaah...! | | 5 hugs / Give hugs? |
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